1. list ten things that you want to say to people but you know you never will.
2. don't say who they are.
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1. i love you so much you big blop of lumps.HAHA though we're in different schools and different environments it doesn't mean i love you any less!bonding over shopping lousy shoes hiding purchases and lousy/jerkish/ugly/shuai/perfect guys are the way to go. (: my prayers go out to you every single night,and you never fail to make me laugh.i know you'll always be there for me and you know i'll always be there for you,love.thanks for being my twinny,my lumps,my heffalumps,my confidante,my nonsensical partner.i kow i can always count on you to laugh at my jokes even though they're not funny at all.we'll live in a glass house and grow old together and condemn chikopeks.our friendship was made to last. :D love loads.
2. thanks for being there when i needed you.listening to me talk nonsense over the phone,insult you like crazy,drag you out from nonsense shit for insignificant nonsense,talk nonsense,play bishibashi,study with me despite the fact that i drive you nuts.you're the only one that can put a smile on my face despite having the shittiest mood and you're the only one that truly truly understands the shit i'm going through.and you give me the best advice. :)
3. i don't know whether it's still possible between us,but from what i've been hearing it seems you've been having a tough time recently.pls cheer up,cos everything's easier with an open mindset and optimism.and treasure what you have in front of you.things won't always work out the way you want them to,but it takes work for them to get that way.best of luck. :)
4. hey dearie.thanks for being my companion during enrichment week and being there with lousy toilet paper while i cried.you're able to cheer me up especially whenever you're doing math,and your drawings always make me feel that there's something worth cotninuing for.i love all the small private jokes we share,haha especially with walking out of jap restaurants and newurbanmales!haha.love loads dearie.we'll make it through mr teo's remedial classes!haha.
5. i love recieving your emails and smiling everytime i open them,because i know you'll always be there for me,to encourage me and to endure all my shitty friends and jerks that i make friends with.it's uncanny how your advice always turns out right,although i don't want it to. :) but despite all the trouble i land myself into,i can always lean on you and count on you to not say 'i told you so.' that helps in ways you never know. :D
6. to the best bunch of coworkers i could ever have,i love you guys so much.you've made my experience in council so much fulfilling and enriching.doing cheers and rushing stuff and BUYING POPPERS with you guys have been made into so much more than what it seems.you guys shine in every single possible way,and i know that the passion really burns deep in your heart.thanks to the best bunch of girls i've ever worked with;you've made my life so much brighter.love. :)
7. to the next group of people who've made council really a learning journey,thanks.sitting through endless hours of meetings and arguing and coming back to the same point has taught me a lot about patience.haha,not but really.you guys have taught me so much,how to listen to other people,how there can be so many sides to a situation,how we can work so well together even though we're such different people.and for teaching me the power of personal strength and determination.i'm proud to say that i've worked with such people.
8. even though i haven't seen you in damn long,i still think you're a jerk.HAHA and i can't believe i liked you.ohmygod i think i took damn long to get over you.what a waste of my time.HAHA lumps was right about you.
9. i despise you.as lousy as it sounds,i really do.
10. i can't control and i won't control what you do.you'll never know,that when i said it doesn't matter,it actually mattered the most of all.and every night,i go to sleep,hugging the cow,and wodnering whether you spent the same amount of time thinking of me as i did for you.i get distracted during class because i wonder whether that person walking past is you,and i wonder why you don't want to make the effort to make it work.and i just want to shake you and ask you why.i took off the nametag because i couldn't bear to hug the cow,and think perhaps,you're aren't mine anymore.
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there are so many things that i wanna say but i can't anymore.
outing with lumps again.lousy shoes manhattan fish market eclectic attic with weird salepeople denim skirts istana pasar malams sunglasses adidas puma talkative promoters walking walking studying hollywood mags drinks expensive perfume just about characterized our day.thanks dear.you never fail to take my mind of things.all the best with you and -ahem.HAHA funny legs! :D
can i forget about the way it feels to touch you?
and all about the good times that we've been through
could i wake up without you every day?
would i let you walk away?
no i can't learn to live without
and i can't give up on us now
oh i know i could say we're through
and tell myself i'm over you
but even if i made a vow
i promise not to miss you now
and try to hide the truth inside
i'd fail cause i,
i just can't live a lie
